Life is short and fleeting. Were born, we grow until eventually we realize were no longer growing but dying. In my personal opinion people just do not talk enough about all of these things. I am the type of person that doesn't just take things sitting down, I want to know every single thing about something before I say "I'm okay with that." The problem is in life thats not always possible.
Especially if your a person of faith. You're told to "by faith" believe something that makes zero sense to you just because someone else says to. Well just like everything in life, I am not the type person to easy say " I'm okay with that." I have to figure it out for myself and reason it all out and then get to the end and realize there is no reason in the world that will get me my answer and then faith comes in.
Faith to me is just a different word for choice. I have to choose to either trust or not to trust. That crossroads is not an easy one, its not a once in a lifetime one. That choice is a daily one. So I'm not sure what my feelings will tell me I should do tomorrow but today I'm choosing that God is good and I choose to trust it, regardless of all the crap in this world because if we look for beauty in any situation, no matter how small it is we will always find it.
" I will remain confident of this; I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." - Psalm 27: 13-14